Quarter life crisis

[maria]

Hello, everyone this does not have too much to do with film but I love this network because I feel that I can really be my true spiritual self. I am always myself but on filmmaker I can incorporate God and you guys understand me! and might I add ask me really good questions and give good feedback and I appreciate you all who have commented on my discussion and blogs.

But anyway I am about to turn the big 2-5 and I can not believe it! I am a tad bit depressed because I am not where I want to be in my life. Although I am thankful to God for everything that he has given me He truly has pulled me through it all and I can never repay Him for all He has done. I am thankful that He has made a way for me to be in school and has blessed me with wonderful professors that I have learned so much from.

I guess I am depressed because I wanted to have my film degree by now and work on films that glorify God but I don't know. God has a plan and I know that I stray from it, I know He has one for me. I just need to get over myself and surrender my plans to Him. I heard this song today that sung something like my vain plans and my pride to You. I want to be there. I want to give it all to Him my stupid selffish goals and my vain pride to Him.

I believe that one day I will be a filmmaker and when I say I believe I mean I commit to that plan that God has for me. I love Him sooo He knows me like no other and I am greatful to have this network as an outlet to let my inner most feelings out in this blog. I will pray that we will continue to make Christ-centered films and that for some of us we will make Christ-centered films.

God bless you all!

Quarter life crisis out...

[Franck Tingue]

You ask me why it is that you awake in the night and feel enclosed in darkness? I often feel the same way myself; but these desponding feelings are no evidence that God has forsaken you or me. . . . Gloomy feelings are no evidence that the promises of God are of no effect. {3SM 324.1}

You look at your feelings, and because your outlook is not all brightness, you begin to draw more closely the garment of heaviness about your soul. You look within yourself and think that God is forsaking you. You are to look to Christ. . . . {3SM 324.2}

Entering into communion with our Saviour, we enter the region of peace. . . . We must put faith into constant exercise, and trust in God whatever our feelings may be. . . . We are to be of good cheer, knowing that Christ has overcome the world. We will have tribulation in the world, but peace in Jesus Christ. My brother, turn your eyes from within, and look to Jesus who is your only helper.--Letter 26, 1895. {3SM 324.3}


Counsel to a Despondent Sister

In my Christian experience I have passed over the ground where you are now traveling. It seemed that I was bound in chains of despair. When quite young, only
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about 12 years old, I was for months utterly helpless. But the Lord did not suffer me to remain in this condition. He attracted me by His own mercy and grace, and brought me to the light. He will help you. {3SM 324.4}

Look away from yourself. Do not think or talk of yourself. You cannot save yourself by any good work that you may do. The Lord Jesus has not made you a sin-bearer. He has not been able to find any human or angelic being to be a sin-bearer. He says, "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Do you not believe the words of Christ? He bids you, "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart; and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." {3SM 325.1}

Think of the Saviour. Lay your sins, both of omission and of commission, upon the Sin-bearer. You know that you love the Lord; then do not worry away your life because Satan harasses you with his falsehoods. Believe that Jesus will and does pardon your transgression. He bore the sins of the whole world. He loves to have the weak and troubled soul come to Him and rely upon Him. Seek God in simple faith, saying, "I believe; help thou mine unbelief." {3SM 325.2}

Angels Minister to Trusting Souls.--The Lord does not readily cast off His erring children. He bears long with them. His angels minister to every believing, trusting soul. Now, when you read these words, believe that the Lord accepts you just as you are, erring and sinful. He knows that you cannot blot out one sin; He knows that His precious blood, shed for the sinner, makes that one who is troubled, worried, and perplexed, a child of God. {3SM 325.3}

The Word of God is like a garden filled with beautiful, fragrant flowers. My sister, will you not pluck the flowers, the roses, the lilies, and the pinks of His promises? Rest in His love. No tongue can express or finite mind conceive the greatness and richness of His promises for just such weak and trembling souls as you
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are. Simple faith and trust is your part; the Lord's part He never fails to fulfill. By faith draw close to the precious Sin-bearer, and then cling to Him by faith. Do not worry; this will not help the matter at all. Believe that Christ Himself rebukes the enemy, and that he can have no more control over you. Believe that Satan has been rebuked. When the enemy comes in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord will lift up for you a standard against him. {3SM 325.4}

Take Hold of Jesus and Never Let Go.--Again I bid you to look away from yourself. Look to Jesus. Take hold of the Mighty One, and never let go. Our Lord Jesus has expressed His love for you in that He gave His own life that you might be saved; you must not distrust that love. Do not look on the dark side. Be hopeful in God. By beholding Jesus as your sin-pardoning Saviour you become changed into His image. Say, "I have asked my Saviour, He has set me free, and I am free indeed. I am the Lord's, and the Lord is mine. I will not fear. I know that He loves me in my infirmities, and I will not make Him sorry by showing that I distrust Him. I break with the enemy. Christ has cut the cords that bound me, and I will praise the Lord." {3SM 326.1}

Thus you can educate and strengthen your mind. May the Lord help and bless you every moment. Be free, yes, be free in the Lord just now. Rejoice in your freedom.--Letter 36, 1900. {3SM 326.2}


Look Beyond the Shadows

Jesus lives; He has risen, He has risen, He is alive forevermore. Do not feel that you carry the load. It is true you wear the yoke, but whom are you yoked up with?--No less a personage than your Redeemer. Satan will cast his hellish shadow athwart your pathway; you cannot expect anything else; but he cast the same dark shadow athwart the pathway of Christ. Now all you have to do is to look beyond the shadow to the brightness of Christ. . . . Do not look at the discouragements; think of how precious is Jesus.
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{3SM 326.3}

Your memory will be renewed by the Holy Spirit. Can you forget what Jesus has done for you? . . . You were taken away from yourself; your deepest, sweetest thoughts were upon your precious Saviour, His care, His assurance, His love. How your desires went out to Him! {3SM 327.1}

All your hopes rested upon Him, all your expectations were associated with Him. Well, He loves you still; He has the balm that can heal every wound and you can repose in Him. . . . {3SM 327.2}

The Comforter will be to you all that you desire. You will be weighted with the Spirit of God, and the importance of the message, and the work. I know that the Lord is willing to reveal to you wondrous things out of His law. Oh, let all take knowledge of you, that you have been with Jesus.--Letter 30a, 1892. {3SM 327.3}

Face the Light.--I will not allow my mind to dwell on the dark side. Jesus has light and comfort and hope and joy for me. I want to face the light, that the brightness of the Sun of Righteousness may shine into my heart, and be reflected to others. It is the duty of every Christian to shine--to shed abroad the light of the grace that Christ imparts. God would have me, even in my pain, praise Him, showing that I realize that His presence is with me. (Rom. 5:1; 1 John 5:11 quoted.)--Manuscript 19, 1892. {3SM 327.4}

[Franck Tingue]

That is so how I feel sometimes. Its funny your post was really encouraged me Maria. Thank you for sharing, I want to be a better Animator/filmmaker/illustrator. I got my BFA from SVA but had trouble finding work, Lucky by God's grace I got a job teaching at ITT-Tech. My struggle right now is that I really want to be better and build up my skill, God really humbled be when I was work of school and out of work. Great things happen when I let him lead. but everything comes crushing down when I try to run the show. I really feel impressed to use Animation to aid in the 3.A.M. somehow but I really don't know exactly how yet. Thank you for this post its really been a blessing to me I really wish you the best Maria. God bless.


-Franck Tingue-

[Pierre Walters]

I had a similar frustration as I was studying to become an actor, and a professor pulled me aside and gave me the most valuable wisdom the school probably had to offer me. "You are an actor the moment you decide to become one." And this logic I've incorporated into my filmmaking endeavors, coming to the resolution that despite my circumstances, "I am a filmmaker the moment I decide to become one." That's the power that God has given us in his image, that we can be what we desire to be if we allow ourselves - and allow Him to make it manifest. So go for it, you're 25 and you ARE a filmmaker. It's not selfishness or pride to want to exercise the talents that God has given you, what better way to show God that you appreciate his gift than to use it - ? Go on, be what you know you are, you're a filmmaker Maria, nothing is holding you back.